Thursday, November 5, 2009

Some Days...

I just wanna give up.

I am hoping that I am not the only stay at home MOTHER that feels this way. And I am hoping that by posting my woes other moms can feel some comfort knowing that the grass is definetly not greener on my side of the fence.

I LOVE my children. I would do anything for them. I am incredibly happy that Jacob works so stinking hard so that I don't have to. Some days I want to auction off my children to the highest bidder.

Ellie is so different than Ethan was at this age. Maybe it is because she is a girl, maybe because she is our second child, or maybe just because this is who she is - but she is one dramatic little baby! If something does not go exactly her way - she is screaming her little tush off untill it is made right. I know my mom is out there somewhere reading this and saying, "Not Ellie, she would never!" Yes, mom - she would!! There are days where I just have to ignore her crying because she is crying to just cry. I feel bad, but at the same time - I am NOT going to let her chew on the shoes!!!


And then there is Ethan. And by Ethan, I mean "Ethan the terrible". Ethan is one sweet little boy. He is very polite; always saying please and thank you. He is very courteous, always saying excuse me and I'm sorry. He is also a very good helper; he loves to take out the garbage and help vacuum and put the clean dishes away. He is all of those things - unless you are his mother. And then he is "Ethan the terrible" lately. He yells "NO!". He refuses to take naps and then when 6:00 rolls around he is so exhausted that he is a kicking, hitting, throwing, yelling, not listening machine.


My friend, Aimee, came over the other day and he was doing something he wasn't supposed to. I said stop like 20 times. As soon as Aimee says stop - he stops. What is this magic that others have over my children? Can I get some? Can I buy it?

I really with that STAPLES EASY BUTTON really worked.


My house is a mess. Someone was coming over and I litterally hid my dirty laundry, in my kitchen, under a big bath towel!

The bathrooms haven't been cleaned in almost a month. Yes, mold is starting to grow.
Forget about dusting. That hasn't been done since we bought the house in May.
Laundry is a never ending battle.
I didn't brush my teeth today.
My back is killing me from lifting either a 20lb. or 40lb. child all day long as they battle
over who get to play with what meaningless toy first, only to be forgotten about
minutes and thrown aside.
I have bills that need paid. I need to win the lottery.
Ethan says "Oh crap" every second he remembers he isn't supposed to say "Oh crap" and then immediately follows with "Don't say that!" Because that is what I say when he says it.
He is going through this weird phase where he gives everyone a
smack on the butt - we aren't in sports buddy!!
Ellie is crying because I took a DVD away from her - big crocodile tears.
I can't remember the last time I slept the entire night through - quite literally.
My grocery "want list" is about three pages long.
My house "To Do" list is about 12.
I haven't scrapbooked or sewn in almost a month.
I'm pretty sure that people think I'm a hermit because I feel like I never leave the house.
By the way, what does sunlight look like?
I want to start writing my history but I can't even brush
my teeth dialy let along write!
I wish my stomach was more "elastic" like it was in the olden days. The next web search
I do is going to be titled (Plastic Surgery for Moms).
My acne has gotten worse since I have had kids.
I wanna be done having kids.
I wanna have more kids.
I wish moms had paid vacation and sick leave.
My Grandparents are coming to visit next week and I am very excited.
I have all the words memorized to Rascall Flatts "Life is a Highway" from Cars and
the Mickey Mouse Clubhouse theme song - "It's the Mickey Mouse Clubhouse!!
Come inside, it's fun inside! Roll Call!"
I want to go back to school and get my teaching degree. I don't have the money
or energy - not to mention the time to go back to school right now.
Ethan cracked the screen on my IPhone with a car.
I have "fished" poop out of the bath tub three times this month.


I love my kids.

(I really do)

I promise.

5 comments:

Aimee & Brennen Fuller said...

Oh Michele---It definitely has been quite the month for you. If it's not ear infections it's tonsilitis. If it's not this toy it's that toy. I'm so sorry. Anytime you need me to tell Ethan "No." Just call me up and I can try to tell him over the phone. Good luck today! :)

the boy and girl. said...

So, I would love to say that my life is the same but it's not...at least today. It was yesterday and everyday before that but today I have been too busy to worry about anything else but what I'm working on. I TOTALLY understand {and} I have 1 kid. Sad. Don't worry, though, tomorrow will be back to normal for us though--which is a crazy day every day!

Come up here and hang out and your kids can destroy my house! :) I'm excited to be coming down there a lot while your grandparents are here next week. I loved your comment about how Ethan is the nicest little boy...unless your his mom. HAH! That made me laugh out loud!

I hear ya about the plastic surgery...just take one good look at my stomach and you will be proud your stomach has held its ground. Really, just one look is all it takes. Then you will be grateful.

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Anonymous said...

One day in 1987 a neighbor saw me walking home from church with you and Craig all dressed to the nines. She thought we were the perfect family, you guys were always so good and Scott was such a fine father to you. She said that she wanted to be just like me. Boy did I burst her bubble but I could not resist telling her that I had worked hard for that shiny venere that she saw as perfect!
After I explained a divorce to a drug and alcoholic husband and raising two children with my parents for two years and that you didn't yet have "Dad's" last name, she almost melted right before my eyes. "But the lesson to be learned" I said "is that it takes work, lots of work".
See how well you turned out? I mean in the end? You turned out a wonderful mother, wife and general crazy person - just like the rest of us. The best is yet to come! I am waiting for grandbaby number 4 so hurry up.

Carin said...

I could add my name to that post and I only have one kid. BUT, I totally relate! :) I think it's time for a Mom vacation for all of us.